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      A couple years ago, when I was on state medicaid, I went to see a psychiatrist. Over the course of the hour I explained to him how life-changing my ADHD diagnosis had been, and how much the medication helped.

      He said that I had no need for medication because I’m an adult with a college degree. “Next patient.” It was one of the must frustrating experiences of my life. I had been without my prescription for over a year at that point.

      ~ One Week Later ~

      My loving, working-class parents bleed out exactly $500.00 cash for me to see a private psychiatrist. I told him I had been diagnosed in the past. He listened and gave me a standard assessment. “You do indeed appear to have ADHD. Here is your prescription.”

      The daily injustices of class society. back-to-me-shining

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      ADHD comes with its own little horror in that seeking the most effective treatment instantly makes you a criminal in the eyes of pharmacists, doctors, and lawmakers.

      “Congrats on your ADHD diagnosis! The most effective treatment for this condition is stimulant medication.”

      Thanks doc, can I be prescribed stimulant medication to treat my ADHD?

      Doctor types “drug seeker” into your chart, offers SNRI instead, acts like you’re faking it a month later when you don’t respond well to the treatment

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          I can relate to this so much. I have a severe needle phobia as a result of autism plus extreme childhood trauma, and doctors used to give me a single dose benzo prescription of Ativan when I needed to do bloodwork and get vaccines. That all stopped, forever, the moment my history of opioid addiction made it into my medical record. Makes sense, opioid+benzo is likely to equal dead, right? Well, come covid I was several years clean, and still got denied any sort of sedatives.

          I made it as clear to the doctor as possible that without heavy sedation, I would not be able to get the covid vaccine because in a sober state of mind I cannot control myself at all when someone is about to puncture my flesh with a needle. I will try to exit the room as fast as possible, and I will get violent if someone tries to stop me. Doctor wouldn’t budge, somehow they came to the conclusion that taking a single dose of a benzo is more of a danger to me than catching fucking covid unvaccinated.

          In the end, I had to buy illegal Xanax off the DNM. I showed up for my covid vaccine obviously barred the fuck out. Since then I’ve realized how perfect of a microcosm this situation was for how the war on drugs has severely hurt patient outcomes in situations calling for controlled substances. Do doctors not realize that denying people prescriptions doesn’t mean their patients just give up on trying to source them? That it’s possible that we’ll just get it ourselves at the cost of using unregulated drugs that are far more dangerous? I hope to god they start to notice and factor this into their decision making soon. Shit’s fucked out there.

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            It’s like hey asshole I’m pretty good at medicating my self you could just make my life a whole lot easier and safer by just giving me the drugs I’m taking anyways

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              Yes, I’ve always fantasized about telling doctors exactly this.

              Like, “Hey doc, you can either prescribe me clean, regulated, cheap pharma dope, or I am going to walk out the door and buy laced, stepped on, expensive cartel dope off a street corner. Which course of treatment do you see having better health outcomes?”

              But I’m certain it would not help lmao

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                lol idk honestly I think I’ve gotten into some weird situations because I always try to make friends with drug dealers. I think a lot of them are like why is this weirdo trying to be my friend I’m just trying to sell him drugs

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                  On the bright side I think I’ve actually managed to make friends with some drug dealers who know think I’m a pretty chill person 🤷‍♂️

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            meow-hug I have a massive needlephobia too and was thus only able to get the initial vaccine, using the exact methods you described (except I actually got prescribed benzos). Solidarity comrade, fuck the so-called “American healthcare system”. Death to America.

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              Thanks comrade, I appreciate the solidarity and knowing others also went through this. It was tough for me when the vaccines started rolling out. Every single day I delayed getting the vaccine, the more like a piece of shit I felt doing nothing. All the while I was helplessly watching the chud antivax movement grow. It got to the point I was seriously considering becoming a recluse over it.

              Truly, I don’t know how it didn’t occur to me sooner that I ought to just show up for my vaccine extremely high on illegal drugs.

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          In my experience, children getting stimulants isn’t usually a big deal for doctors because it’s unlikely for children to have a preexisting history of drug addiction. It’s young adults, especially people of color, requiring controlled substances that sets off their cop brain worms

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            Even as a white teenager in the mid 2000’s they wouldn’t prescribe me real painkillers after surgery, they gave me extra strength tylonol which was basically nothing and I was still in agony for over a week

            Cop brain worms may be the worst brain worms

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            I was diagnosed in Kindergarten and they put me on medication K-7ish and 11-12. About 5-7 and later I was probably taking Vyvanse. I had Medicaid at the time. No psychiatrist ever tried to explain what was the matter with me and I was never really conscious of what was the matter. They just told me to take the medicine so I could be allowed to go to school.

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        Tell me about it. My pharmacy began refusing to fill my prescriptions last year because of asinine new distance regulations. Now I have to waste four hours every month driving to a different pharmacy.

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    lol I’m gonna get a professional assessment in a month I hope to god I’m mentally disturbed in some way if it turns out I’m normal and I feel like this I will loose my mind

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      if it turns out I’m normal and I feel like this I will loose my mind

      well at least then you could go back and get reassessed :)

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          i was a kid when i last got diagnosed with anything mental so idk how it is for adults, but as a kid it was very simple. i never had to explain anything, it was pretty much just all simple questions. i figure they’re the professionals who are supposed to know what’s going on with you, so they ought to know how to figure it out. so there shouldn’t be any pressure on you to help them along, you know what i mean?

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    Meanwhile my last psychiatrist was like “Yes you do show many symptoms of ASD, but I do not believe in the usefulness of the medical criteria of the DSM-5 [proceeds to speak about Freud for 5 minutes]”; from what I’ve heard Freud is still a massive problem for psychiatry in my country (France).

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      Dude idk as I said I’m not diagnosed but I live with my parents. I guess it would be nice if there were just chill people around who I could hang out with where I don’t have to pretend to be fucking normal all the time. Maybe also give me a job where I don’t have to interact with people all to much and can just have my tasks that I get done. Im very good at socially interacting with people though so yeah I guess it doesn’t show that I’m slowly loosing my mind all the time when I’m forced into places where I don’t want to be. As I said I really don’t know if I have autism, I just read one of the posts about it here the other day and I could really relate to it. My sisters girlfriend also has autism and when she met my family for the first time and I said ya I think some of us might have autism she just said yes so 🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️

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      Adult Autism Support Groups.

      By adults with autism (hopefully ones who were diagnosed young) for adults with autism (ideally those recently diagnosed). Just provide a space where neurodivergent people and specialists can offer their help to other neurodivergent people in their community.