Evil. When I was a kid and blindly followed American conservatism, then liberalism, I was never able to fully buy into any of it because no matter what they say, I knew Americans - and the majority of westerners - saw me and my friends and family as subhuman to be exploited and killed. Every time I repeated some DOD talking point, there was a nagging voice in the back of my head that wanted to clarify that I didn’t support any of the callous policies, but then I realized that it left me with nothing else to support because it’s all callousness.