People out here just rawdogging life in the early 20s. Good luck to them.
“Drugs? No thanks. The high I get from the micro plastics is enough.”
I don’t need drugs, I was shot as a child, and I have enough adrenaline from that for the rest of my life.
I don’t need drugs. I’m on a steady diet of caffeine and nicotine and meth and life, thanks.
I don’t need drugs. I have drugs.
“I used to do drugs. I still do, but I used to, too.” -Mitch Hedberg
RIP
I went from heroin to methadone, and methadone to nothing. It fucking SUCKS. I hate being around people. I used to be quite the social butterfly. I have hacked away at the people I let into my life down to one friend. I hate people so much that it’s hard to put up with my partner and kids. Loud noises make me irrationally angry. I don’t leave the house unless I HAVE to. Since I got sober I have dreams where I talk to my friends that died from overdoses.
I had a dream where a woman I knew that died of an overdose came to visit me. She sat on the sofa next to me and put her head on my shoulder. When I woke up I could still feel her hair on my face.
I hate being sober. I wish that weed didn’t make me anxious. I wish alcohol didn’t make me feel like shit. I didn’t like uppers before I got sober. Opiates aren’t even an option.
But you know what? As much as being sober fucking sucks, and it does suck make no mistake about it. I won’t die a slave. I am free. I am finally free, and I’m not giving my freedom away again for anyone or anything. I’ve been heroin free for about 5 years. I’m almost 2 years completely sober.
Good on you. I’m just small league clean of cigarettes for a year now. It’s good to be not dependent.
Keep it up!
Hey, quitting cigarettes is no small feat. There are enough things holding us back in life without adding to it. Quitting cigarettes is one choice I guarantee you won’t regret.
Also, don’t sell yourself short. You say “little league clean”, but the process is the same. Be proud of your wins. There will be enough problems in life. Take those wins where you can.
I’m very proud, and part of the belittlement in my comment is not that I’m not proud of it, but I think I may have used it that way to show my respect for your archievement.
So that’s what I’m actually saying, I’m a bit more proud of you kicking your bad habits than my own, so well done on that.
I hope the bleak aspect on life and other people may change a bit to the positive this year. In fact, that is my Christmas wish for you (even though I detest Christmas in all it’s commercial shallowness)
Oh I knew all that. I just wanted to let you know that I also respect your struggle, and that all struggles are worth it in the end.
Thank you for the kind words though. As a grown man praise doesn’t come very often.
To anyone going through this, it gets better. The first year is really tough, and maybe longer, but eventually you’ll learn how to feel relaxed without it if you can stay off it long enough.
You have to fill the gap with something else enjoyable/stimulating.
Also, often people find they enjoy some of the activities they would be doing all along without the drugs,
ie. Hanging out with friends, lying have passed out on a couch watching TV / playing video games / staring at the ceiling listening to music, sex, bumming cigarettes, hustling for money, going to dangerous places / doing dangerous things, committing small time crimes, alienating family, ect…
You can enjoy all these things while sober… no need to be boring ;-)
Joking aside, getting sober sucks, but being sober is amazing.
It took me multiple tries and a lot of misery but I have over 6 years clean now and my life is immensely fulfilling and better than I thought it could be.
Anyone with a heroin/opiate addiction should check out the new injection Suboxone they have. Essentially a cure once you’re ready to make the switch for good! And I was able to get off the shot with essentially no withdrawal at all - unlike the strips. Just saying, it saved my life!
Is it normal to feel this way without having a substance abuse issue? Asking for a friend.
The name is crisis - existential crisis.
James Bond looking rough
Sounds like an onion article.
I feel spotted
Hey, stop making fun of me!
Meanwhile, gay people say the gayest thing you can do is let your sexuality determine how you carry your shopping
Is that Daniel Craig?
No that’s Daniel Crying
Please stop deleting comments.
What are you talking about?
A whole comment tree has been deleted. I got the message that someone replied, even see who and what in that message. But everything is deleted here. It is not there anymore.
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I had a comment and the one I was responding to deleted, but they left the comment response to me which was entirely comprised of calling me “maggot infested dog excrement”…that comment gets kept.
I never said who deleted it. I have no idea. No information was given to me that my comment too was deleted because of some idiot. I found out by chance. Which really stinks, considering I came here to avoid exactly that kind of shit from Reddit.
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This comment has some real “have you tried NOT being addicted?” energy.
“I don’t really get…” exactly. So maybe don’t comment.
Well maybe don’t be a total cunt your whole life, for a change. See, I can make useful comments when I feel like it.
You’re so pretty.
That IS true, I can’t disagree with you there.
hedonism makes just enough sense
Hedonism is vastly underrated and gets poor press. I say the three most important words in life are, “I’ve got mine.”
Think of it as an illness, not a perfectly rational decision. You don’t think “why did that person choose to get a cold”. Or the way people “choose” to be gay.
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Here then is the true nature of “Christian” fellowship. Your words say all that needs to be said about how depraved humankind has become. You are a sterling example of maggot-infested dog excrement, which is about what I’d expect from one of your ilk. Happy holidays!
