@Gentlewest I think one of the things about submission is that it is never a case of total surrender of power. Even on your knees, servicing their cocks, you still wield a power over their desire, stimulation and ability to cum. So how could they not place value and love in the servitude you were giving to them, how could they not look down with affection as you bobbed your head up and down on their cocks?
How long did it take you to experience the freedom from sucking on them?
It was basically at a house party, I’d agreed to do stuff with 3 guys in one of the bedrooms and that felt nice. I was getting attention, there was fun banter, just a bit of fun, it felt light hearted. Then the nature of a house party I guess gossip got out that I was giving blowies so other guys started coming in. That’s when it started feeling overwhelming.
The nature of most guys is to be competitive with each other and show off, all trying to be the alpha, lots of testosterone in the room. That’s when it changed from me giving blowies to me being used.
They all started getting much rougher with me, holding my head and fucking my mouth instead of letting me pleasure their cock. It was getting scary and I felt kind of trapped.
But after a while when several of them had been rough with me it kind of settled down, it had got to the stage where the first guys were ready for their second go. I was in a lot of pain at this point, it’s difficult giving numerous bjs, but they were more relaxed and I just used my hand more on them. Things kind of settled down and I was more comfortable. That was when I just sort of disassociated and went with the flow.
My jaw and neck were incredibly sore but I did my best to put that to the side and got on with what they wanted. It was total sub space and almost felt like an out of body experience.
@Gentlewest after the initial frenzy, discomfort, overwhelm, you make this almost sound like a meditation: your hand wrapped around the base of their cocks to set your boundaries, as you worship their helmets and suck on their shafts while presumably they stroke your hair, rock their hips, tell you how good it feels as you eagerly learn their sensitive spots to provoke their orgasms
@Gentlewest I think one of the things about submission is that it is never a case of total surrender of power. Even on your knees, servicing their cocks, you still wield a power over their desire, stimulation and ability to cum. So how could they not place value and love in the servitude you were giving to them, how could they not look down with affection as you bobbed your head up and down on their cocks?
How long did it take you to experience the freedom from sucking on them?
Hard to put a time frame on it.
It was basically at a house party, I’d agreed to do stuff with 3 guys in one of the bedrooms and that felt nice. I was getting attention, there was fun banter, just a bit of fun, it felt light hearted. Then the nature of a house party I guess gossip got out that I was giving blowies so other guys started coming in. That’s when it started feeling overwhelming.
The nature of most guys is to be competitive with each other and show off, all trying to be the alpha, lots of testosterone in the room. That’s when it changed from me giving blowies to me being used.
They all started getting much rougher with me, holding my head and fucking my mouth instead of letting me pleasure their cock. It was getting scary and I felt kind of trapped.
But after a while when several of them had been rough with me it kind of settled down, it had got to the stage where the first guys were ready for their second go. I was in a lot of pain at this point, it’s difficult giving numerous bjs, but they were more relaxed and I just used my hand more on them. Things kind of settled down and I was more comfortable. That was when I just sort of disassociated and went with the flow.
My jaw and neck were incredibly sore but I did my best to put that to the side and got on with what they wanted. It was total sub space and almost felt like an out of body experience.
@Gentlewest after the initial frenzy, discomfort, overwhelm, you make this almost sound like a meditation: your hand wrapped around the base of their cocks to set your boundaries, as you worship their helmets and suck on their shafts while presumably they stroke your hair, rock their hips, tell you how good it feels as you eagerly learn their sensitive spots to provoke their orgasms
Meditation is the right word.
I’ve always found giving men pleasure really freeing and relaxing.