Spent the last two years basically wasted. Surprisingly have moved up a lot in my life in that time, something to be said about the functional alcoholic.

I’m making this post because I feel like fucking hell, and I’m tired and it’s like every good feeling has been replaced by dog shit.

But I’m not like craving booze right now and so I guess I’m sort of not dependent on it at the moment. I’ve been active too, going to shows and parties and such. They’ve been dramatically less fun, but at least I’m not holed up and away from society like every other time I’ve tried to get off the sauce.

That’s nifty.

Probably will have a drink sometime soon, whatever. Just nice to prove I don’t actually HAVE to drink I guess.

  • LocalOaf [they/them, ze/hir]@hexbear.net
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    14 hours ago

    been there

    have a sad cum bb yes-honey-left

    (sorry)

    I’ve been trying to channel all my “damn I wish I were fucked up rn” shit into over exercising and chasing the endorphins instead to various success

    I’ve slipped a couple times but I keep telling myself “you’re overall doing way better”

    That doesn’t always feel like enough, but I guess you gotta just keep chipping away at it until it settles in for the long term