Love to see a bunch of shit I’m not qualified for and then a bunch of things that don’t begin to cover my expenses and feel bad about myself and my circumstances and cry and eventually put one application for a custodian position with the county because what the fuck else will I do

I know if I went back to school and finished a degree it would give me a leg up but I just can’t fucking handle the workload of work and school anymore, I feel like such a lazy piece of shit but I just don’t have it in me anymore to keep this shit up

Dealing with a lot of dark thoughts today. Very dark.

  • corgiwithalaptop [any, love/loves]@hexbear.net
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    Going on 13 months since I lost my last job. Right there with you comrade. Solidarity rat-salute-2

    My last job rejection (after a series of interviews), they were hiring 10 people for the role. Despite having held the same job title as I was applying for for about 10 years, somehow I was apparently not desirable enough to be one of ten, let alone #1. Fuck 'em all.

    Normally I’m lucky to get an interview at all kitty-birthday-sad

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      15 hours ago

      Sorry dude. That sounds…grinding. Hope you find something half way decent soon. You deserve to be treated like a person , with value, and your skills should be recognized too. Solidarity, Internet stranger. I feel for ya.

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      Someday you’ll find the shark fucking position you were made for

      Full disclosure I’m employed I just hate my job because it’s soul-draining and there’s no structure and the work just piles higher and higher and it’s a constant sensory overload assault on my eyes and ears

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        7 hours ago

        Thanks comrade. I know it would be emotionally draining work, but I’m hoping to get hired at a local homelessness outreach organization in the coming months. That’s my preferred place now, but its been so long that I gotta take what comes first.