busy as usual, alas

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    5 months ago

    Recently learned that an individual who is causing the most strife and division on my team is super hard-core MAGA Trumper. It really brings a clearer picture on why he is attacking I and the other women on the team and why those he hired are only white men. I’m already nervous about the upcoming election, but to see a supporter so emboldened in his views in the workplace gives me a more in-your-face view of how these people want their day-to-day.

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      Once upon a time I had the belief that such people were merely lacking information. Maybe that they were a little lacking in empathy, but that their positions were primarily a matter of poor exposure to ideas.

      I now that though for some that is true, for the overwhelming majority it is not. They back authoritarian views in full understanding of what that entails for their fellow humans, and they like it.

      How able are you to evade political violence should it come to your area? Could you get involved with mutual support/defense groups, or form one? People like your team member get away with a lot within civil society, but come asunder should stuff kick off and norms come under strain.

      Meantime, be good to yourself. You’re far from alone.

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        Thank you for this kind reply; I needed it this morning.

        I’m a bit perturbed by the overlap of “toxic-tech-broism” and authoritarian support; to a point where I sometimes want to escape corporate tech all together. I’ve posted a while ago on Beehaw asking how to transition from corporate to a possibly non-profit or government job instead; but my battery for this effort is depleted right now. There is an end in sight within a few months for this project, and my plan is to find a different job with a more progressive team hopefully.

        May you also find peace in your own journey in this world; it’s nice to know it’s not a lonely route.

  • FIash Mob #5678@beehaw.org
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    5 months ago

    It’s friday.

    I made it to the gym and feel glorious. I’m on Day 4 of being a primary Linux user and it feels nice to know that I’m digitally flipping Microsoft the bird.

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      Yo man, same. I decided to go to the gym today for the first time since February and… well, I’m not as strong as I used to be, that’s for sure, but it felt really good. I think I’ll start doing it more.

      Also – as someone on year 8 of his Linux journey, the start of the road can be rocky, but as long as you stick with it and learn the Linux way of doing things, it is very much worth it. A lot of people like customizing every aspect of their system, and as we all know Linux can deliver that, but I’m very much a fan of a system that just gets out of my way and lets me get stuff done, and Linux can deliver that too.

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        I work out six days a week, haha.

        Once you get to a point where it’s like brushing your teeth, it’s easy.

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          I’ve been fooling around with an adjustable free weight at home, and forcing myself to do a few (12-15) pushups, bicep curls, or plank hold every night before I let myself go to sleep. It’s no substitute for a gym (hence why I found I was so much weaker lol), especially with only one or two sets, but it’s nice to keep my hand in.

          It’s also nice to know I can hold a plank position for 5 minutes without stopping.

  • FIash Mob #5678@beehaw.org
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    5 months ago

    Pretty good!

    After reading about Windows Recall last week I decided I’m making the change to Linux. (Dual boot for now, since I’m an avid gamer and don’t want to lose my games, so I need a few months to make sure nothing will break.)

    Currently typing this from my fresh installation of Brave on my fresh installation of Linux Mint.

    Feels good to say “!@#$ you, Microsoft”.

    • 🐝bownage [they/he]@beehaw.org
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      Good on ya! I’m really considering it as well. I’ve never liked windows 11 and I basically only use my desktop for gaming anyway, so I really should consider doing the same. I guess I’m just lazy and afraid I might lose game/steam compatibility? Anything you can share regarding that?

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        On the distro I chose, Linux Mint, Steam is easily available via the Software Manager, and roughly half of my games are Steam-compatible out of the box. Steam actually has a toggle in your game library that indicates your games that are Linux-compatible. For those that aren’t, there’s https://www.protondb.com/, where you can check the database to see if particular games are compatible and get installation tips to help with compatibility.

        Installation was very easy with info available on Youtube and the Linux Mint website.

        All it cost me was $7 for a USB drive in order to create the ISO file.

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        I should add that I kept Windows as well, due to my extensive video game library. You can have both and just use Linux for most things in order to upgrade your security and efficiency, and just switch to your Windows boot in order to play games that aren’t on Linux.

    • MangoKangaroo@beehaw.org
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      Welcome to the shitshow. :D As an aside, if you’re ever running non-Linux apps outside of Steam, I can’t recommend Bottles enough. I’ve been using it for games and others apps and my experience with it has been awesome.

      • FIash Mob #5678@beehaw.org
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        5 months ago

        That is exceedingly helpful. Thank you.

        I’m tentatively planning to ditch Windows completely in a few months. I just want to use Linux daily for a while until I’m comfortable with it and certain I’m good to go on the gaming side.

  • rozwud@beehaw.org
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    5 months ago

    I feel awful. Tested negative for COVID, but I haven’t felt this bad since I had it.

  • Pete Hahnloser@beehaw.org
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    5 months ago

    Fucking amazing. First burn, work goes well. I’m actually happy in my own skin after decades of crippling depression.

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    Peak summer here, hottest monday at 47C, its just lovely! Other than that things are looking up, hopefully i’ll get stuff done.

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    We’re deep into second kiddo territory (6 weeks) and I think I’m just feeling a bit burned out. The jump from zero to one child is HUGE and there was a lot of mourning the loss of our freedom/life for both my wife and I. We’re feeling the same dip now that we’re back into dealing with a newborn ~2 years later and while not as severe, I can tell for myself it’s there and bothering me. I’ve also been back to work the last three weeks so my schedule is basically go to work (from home) all day, take the baby most of the evening while we chase a 2 year old around, get the 2 year old to bed, then hand off the new kiddo around 8:30 - 9 so I can go to bed and I get them back somewhere around 10-11 depending on the last bottle for the rest of the night. Both kids have been good sleepers (thank god) but I’m still getting woken up somewhere around 3am for that middle of the night bottle.

    No time for really much else. I know intuitively it will get better because I saw it happen before, it’s just rough right now. No time for the mrs, hobbies, friends, etc…and I think we were figuring it out with number one really well. Just all hitting me the last few days.

    Luckily both kids are freaking adorable and the older one is overflowing with personality as they’re learning, saying, repeating more and more from daycare. It’s been awesome to see them just explode in their development. I also understand now why some parents would have leashes for their toddlers.

  • Cass.Forest@beehaw.org
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    Currently I’m just waiting out job applications to hopefully pay me more than my two part time jobs (or at least one of them) and have me working less for it

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      Keep at it! Remember job applications and interviews are just an elaborate game for people to find out if you’d be a match. Rejection doesn’t mean you’re not capable.

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    5 months ago

    I got bored and installed Arch on my desktop. I’m back on Arch after using Ubuntu for years.

  • 𝓔𝓶𝓶𝓲𝓮@lemm.ee
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    As always at this day of the week I start to feel intense aggression coupled with too much time on social media around fridays which results in being an insufferable menace to online society. Then on Saturday I feel amazing again… after two days of pointless internet arguments and feeling like sociopath I cry to lion king and love people and animals again.

    However today I start to feel intense yearning to commit war crimes and cope by sharing it all with the internet yay. Again the metallic taste of sadism fills my mouth harming more myself really than anyone else in these two day streaks of Reddit freakout.

    I need to find some kind of better fkin release than battling lame nerds and loli hentai fans, ordinary morons, marxists leninists, singularity freaks, husbando haters, irs goons, lawful high horse riders

    To stay non edgy for most of the time at Thursday and Friday is a challenge. The hormones go down and down inversely proportional to the desire for murder but jail is not the best place for non legally transitioned trans ppl as we all know.

    Stay classy Emmie you can do it

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      Something about this feels like the makings of a short story, or collection of them even. Could be a way to divert yourself from rampaging round social media?

      If mostly due to hormonal fluctuations, maybe your doctor can tweak them a little to give you a smoother ride?

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        I am my own doctor lol it’s all local home grown 100% organic

        Hey thanks for the comment though, I feel pretty nice today. I hope you too

        Wow this original comment is unreadable who wrote it, ah yes me I guess. This is some really weird person, hope they never come back though I feel they may around Saturday :/

        So cringe what the heck. So weird to read when the world is all pink and bright and someone even upvoted it. you guys are real good people that can see through the fumes of self loathing

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          Wildly impressed at the homegrown cures.

          Anyhow, assume this week’s Witching Hour has struck, as my notifications tell me I missed a reply before it was deleted.

          Come rail at us if you need to. Am a reasonably ordinary moron if that helps!!

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            Fuck it’s coming I will make a clown out of myself online again. I am already setting up all the paint, red nose and the wig

            I was already blasting classical music at 100 decibels out of my car today because the fuckers must get cultured through Beethoven

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                  YES & YES.

                  So in ordinary moronland, just back from voting on a metre-long ballot comprising 6 Fascists (mercifully unpopular), 3 NazBols (could fool some), 3 Tankies (quite popular) & 11 assorted others.

                  Now slinging Jagermeïster & have already mistaken some supposed local hotshot from the arts for a locum parish priest. He’s ever so slightly regretting having asked why I thought he looked familiar.

                  Gonna regale us with tales from the front?

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    Not good. It’s not like anything bad happened (actually there were only good things) but I did some highly questionable stuff and it’s a big problem for me. If someone figures out what I did, it’s going to be a disaster. Also my recent attacks caused my older relatives to seek help from psychics and similar people (they believe in such stuff) which is not great because the last time they did it I had very heavy nosebleeds. Well I’m in danger as always. And my mental health isn’t getting much better. My mind is still functioning on a very basic level because everything else is critically damaged. I guess if I was a regular modern person, I’d be dead or crazy already. But I’m stronger and it does have its disadvantages. At least I can suppress my pain a little bit with YouTube and my new sim racing setup (direct drives are awesome btw).

    EDIT: forgot to mention that some serious social issues started to pop up as well

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    There’s been… stuff.

    Otherwise, reasonable inroads on neglected household cleaning & even a tiny bit of admin.