I’m likely on a yet another burnout cycle, and I have little to no possibility of meeting with people thanks to the place I live. I also have trouble with socializing in general, even in online spaces.
Since my current job I don’t make enough to move or to live alone, and the only better place would cost me more than the Hungarian minimum wage (of which I make less than thanks to labor programs 🤢), I cannot really change this, also would only marginally help me since I always had issues with socializing.
Went to a gathering of people last night in memory of a friend who killed themselves a couple weeks back, and it was nice, but just reinforced how unable I am to properly interact with people, and how fucking alone I feel constantly. I’m now in quite the shit place, no idea what to do.