I finally filed for divorce from my abusive wife recently. I believe she might be a clinical psychopath at this point. She picked a fight with me on my 40th birthday the other day and this ruined the time I had with my daughter. She did things like this constantly.

I just feel like she has finally completely broken me as a person…I now am unsure if I can get better. I will stay alive for my daughter’s sake, but some days I really don’t want to be.

I have no real resources. I have no money. Most therapists I’ve seen have been terrible. Most people I talk to don’t seem to believe me that I’ve been abused. I just cannot take this anymore.

I finally got on a couple dating apps to see if that made me feel better and it had totally the opposite. It set off a very bad downward spiral.

I feel like I have a lot to offer. I’m funny, kind, smart, a talented musician/artist, I think I’m handdome even (can’t post a pic obviously), but no one seems to care. It’s like when I put my confidence to practice I get rejected and reminded why I shouldn’t have any.

I don’t know if I’ll ever get better.

  • 2Password2Remember [he/him]@hexbear.netEnglish
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    4 months ago

    dating apps are quite literally designed to make you feel bad about yourself so that you pay for a better chance of getting matches, especially for straight men. you can completely ignore any impact it has on how you feel about yourself, it’s literally just capital using your insecurities against you to say “fuck you, pay me.” get away and stay away

    you’ll be alright though. give yourself time to heal and focus on making the most of the good attributes you listed about yourself. also, feeling better is not a linear process - some days you will feel like you’re regressing, but that’s ok. it’s part of the process so try not to get down on yourself about it

    meow-hug

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