I want to be more mindful about the light I cast myself in. I leave myself little room to grow and it’d be beneficial to adventure my way to better self perception.

I have self esteem issues that have me avoid testing how I’ll react to different scenarios. Whatever “wrong” means, I often assume I’ll react “wrongly.” I constantly shut down chances for myself to experience more things in life. Like when people give ideas for things I can do, I almost always reject them because I assume I’m incapable of doing those ideas.

        • FumpyAer [any, comrade/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
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          10 months ago

          Epub version (adjusts to your screen size, you will need an ebook reader app though).

          PDF version full size pages, does not adjust to your screen.

          The “slow” mirrors are still fast because it’s a small file.

          Or you can buy it on the platform of your choice. I have the physical book because it is nice to have. “CPTSD: From Surviving to Thriving” by Pete Walker.

            • FumpyAer [any, comrade/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
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              10 months ago

              According to the book, yes. I’m no expert, but I self diagnosed using this book. And the coping strategies and frameworks inside have been useful for me to understand myself.

              Another author that helped was Alice Miller. I’m not a fan of “the body keeps the score” but “the drama of the gifted child” was helpful for me.

              Btw, on what she means by gifted, Alice Miller writes,

              “When I used the word ‘gifted’ in the title, I had in mind neither children who receive high grades in school nor children talented in a special way. I simply meant all of us who have survived an abusive childhood thanks to an ability to adapt even to unspeakable cruelty by becoming numb… Without this ‘gift’ offered us by nature, we would not have survived.” But merely surviving is not enough. The Drama of the Gifted Child helps us to reclaim our life by discovering our own crucial needs and our own truth.