I don’t really do anything worthwhile. Or at least that is what it sounds like when it is talked about. “You didn’t have to do that” “you don’t feel like that do you” I must really not be good at anything, and I really did think I was helping. But I guess I should keep to what I am good at, being in the way.
I have what I need, a place so no one will need to deal with clean up, and I have the know how. Courage is the thing I need and let me tell you my courage grows everyday.
I will probably delete this when I wakeup in the morning because I am a coward, but soon I will have the strength and need the relief enough.
It is okay to be tired. I’m sure you’re exhausted. Emotional turmoil is a huge drain on pretty much everyone. You just need to hang in there when things get rough. Get to they pace where you’re safe and indulge in distractions and comforts. The rest of the world will be there when it’s time to deal.