i honestly think mine was sometime in 8th grade when i realized that i didn’t just admire this guy, i wanted to go out with him.
i got jealous when he jokingly flirted with guys, but at the same time hoped that he was hinting that he was queer and not just joking around.
At first, I just mainly liked women, but I never really cared about gender from the beginning, I guess. As a child, I never understood gender roles and gender attraction and all that, so it all felt the same to me (maybe it’s something to do with how I viewed social rules as an autistic person?) Though I liked women, I would’ve been fine dating any gender if the right one came along.
Sure enough, several right men (though I would still date regardless) came along. My current interest is in a dude.