solidly lean monog but certain swinging scenarios make me

god whirling in rags 12am sounds so fucking pretty slowed + reverbed :')

In that moment i saw in my heart six months from now when she and I were in the kitchen making novelty snacks for a game night we invited our friends to. She has me taste a spoon. It is too salty. She looks away. I have to spend ten minutes sitting in a display recliner pretending to read the nutrition facts of a bag of hello kitty strawberry marshmallows. After which time I have contemplated all the mistakes I have made in life that prevent me from knowing that moment and I can continue my day

Based beyond words

I love my wife so fucking much and it really seems to alienate me from my cishet male friends.

he/they so maybe it doesn’t count but fwiw i am heavily pro wifeguy. i might even consider myself Wifeguy Aspiring. might even go so far as to say that you are, in fact, goals

I will say I think some of our dorky soft loverboys here do things like this now and then

i haven’t done a deep dive on it but there’s no chance either way that i will stop consuming slop well into the evening

thinking this is true

i mean i definitely want to believe this so i can keep drinking and drinking coffee and eating food with any flavor at all and exposing my eyes to blue light so i can consume slop, but…

that sounds a bit worrying but i’m glad ur still with us comrade

why is the fix for so many mental health and health problems (insomnia and IBS, for instance) just "oh yeah, you know those things that make life bearable/give it any joy? gotta cut them shits out buddy, sorry!!! "

i joke about it a lot on here but low key IBS actually is an invisible disability. anything but a WFH email job and it really hinders your performance and ability to show up, but it’s also not something you can really talk to a boss about. i have to use a lot more sick time than the average person. there are way worse afflictions obviously but shit (no pun intended) fucking sucks

There’s just a lot more openness here than a lot of other modern forums.

tru i think this is it, plus maybe a greater conscious awareness of the Through Its this system imposes on us

love that for u homie, keep on smashin life

is there anyone on chapo dot chat who is not Going Through It at least semi-regularly? guess this is what learning eldritch truths does

a comrade on here gave me advice recently about something much less serious than this and the main takeaway from the wise shit they said is that the present moment is much more fleeting than it seems. things that seem crushing and insurmountable can be much less of a life-defining, unchangeable reality than they seem in the moment. there’s no guarantees in life, but on the other side of what you’re going through there could be love and personal happiness and connection beyond anything you can imagine right now. even though that’s not guaranteed, i’d personally want to see all that this brief time on earth has to offer me before i make my exit. i hope you end up feeling that way too.

My Empty Shell Is Shedding Me bf Strange to Be Anything At All gf

lol u know ive thought about it but i think they have measures in place that make this kind of multi-account shit risky/fraught. plus the labor to benefit ratio isn’t in my favor, i hate running just my main accounts plenty enough.

often yeah but in this case i think they had my resume on file from a previous application

another agency in my city tryna poach ya boy first time i’ve ever been hit up by a recruiter unprompted, makes me feel like a bit of a hotshot. my new job/promotion is Fine but a little stuffy, and these other positions might bring me closer to communities i grew up in/around so can’t hurt to hear them out.